“Lisa, every time I see you lately, you look like a deer in caught in headlights.” This was said by a friend as I entered the threshold of our third event of the weekend. I was not at all offended. She is a trusted friend and I actually really appreciated her statement. So much so that I am going to write about it today. Why do I appreciate it? Because she’s right. For the last several weeks, I have been busy.
Even beyond the busy, I have been preoccupied.
So, we can be busy and still give full attention to each task we need to accomplish. OR we can be busy and so overcome by it that we cannot even fully focus on each individual task. This is where I am right now.
I have so much swirling around in my head, I cannot stop the swirl long enough to focus or even enjoy quality moments.
Not good. This is not a healthy way to live. It happens on occasion for me….partially because, at the ripe age of 33, I passed the ADD test with flying colors. So, my brain doesn’t do too well with focus.
Add a four-year-old (can I get an AMEN!) and a husband that would love to eat a meal, a house that desperately wants to be cleaned and a ministry that is going through a big transition….and we have…..a deer in headlights. Me.
What do I do now?
Well, for me, the answer is to stop. Just stop. Or be still.
Be still and know that I am God. Psalm 46:10
God is in control. And He isn’t a God of chaos or negligence or fear. He is a God of peace, love and joy. So, I picture God holding my cheeks with both of his hands. (you know how parents do that to get the attention of their child…”look at me! Look. At. Me.)
God is saying to me….Look. At. ME.
Let all that craziness swirl around….but keep your eyes on me. And gradually, when the focus is on Him….the swirling slows down and pieces begin to fall where they may. Sometimes they fall where I had originally planned them to go. Most of the time, they end up in a better place. Other pieces will end up in the trash. They were distracting me from the pieces that matter.
Right now, I am going to be still. Maybe even take a step back to assess the swirl, so to speak. And I am letting God hold my cheeks and keep my eyes on Him. Oh, the peace!
Now, let me tell you….the swirl isn’t “bad.” There are awesome things happening in the swirl! Really awesome things! But they simply can’t all happen at once, or none of them get the attention they deserve.
In my effort to “prioritize the pieces of the swirl,” I am going to reduce my blog posts to twice a month rather than weekly. This will give me time to work on some content for some of the REALLY EXCITING things that are coming up for Side By Side. Trust me, you are going to love it!
So, stay tuned, friends. Great things are on the horizon. In the meantime, check your swirl. Are you like me, a deer caught in headlights? Are you running a mad race through your days? Allow God to hold your cheeks…and move your gaze to Him. He WILL direct your path.